15-6-2006 1:19am

在別人心目中找尋自已的存在會是一樣痛苦的事。從他人對自已的著緊、顧念，來証明自已是她伴侶，不是"工具"。這是很多時我都會想到，但事情終歸不是這麼簡單，內在的因素，如環境般往往左右伴侶對你的顧念，所以只怪伴侶怎麼這樣小時間陪伴，或者總覺不多理會是沒多有好下場，但是我們都因這樣的事情痛心，我知道我怪不得她，但心內感到不成為她心中事情考慮因素的時候，悲傷總是使我失落得失去自已，對她訴說傷悲，希望她能回我一聲，但是到底我也像一個人般。只想我愛的能在這些時候關心她愛的，i want somebody, thats you.




Depeche Mode
Somebody


I want somebody to shareShare
the rest of my life
Share my innermost thoughts
Know my intimate details
Someone who'll stand by my side
And give me support
And in return
She'll get my support
She will listen to me When I want to speak
About the world we live in
And life in general
Though my views may be wrong
They may even be perverted
She'll hear me out
And won't easily be converted
To my way of thinking
In fact she'll often disagree
But at the end of it all
She will understand me
Aaaahhhhh....
I want somebody who cares
For me passionately
With every thought andWith every breath
Someone who'll help me see things In a different light
All the things I detest
I will almost like
I don't want to be tied
To anyone's strings
I'm carefully trying to steer clear ofThose things
But when I'm asleep
I want somebody
Who will put their arms around me
And kiss me tenderly
Though things like this
Make me sick
In a case like this I'll get away with it
And in a place like this I'll get away with it
Aaaahhhhh....



我只想這樣罷。

11-6-2006 9:35pm

這幾天又迷上電子遊戲，夜裡總是忙於東征西戰，好像這些就是我的任務，希望角色們快速成長(數值上)，更容易地將任務完成，這樣心中總有點成功感和對下一關的好奇心。這好像就是一個"就手易食"的目標；即食麵，成了習慣後，甚至會懶得去煮其他複雜些的，或者味覺也變得遲鈍了；但是，它獨特的質感加上味精湯，有時候真的很吸引。至少我絕不抗拒，有時候也很喜歡呢！

雨下了差不多一個月多，前天還黑雨了。她的心情也是密雲多雨了好一陣子，正如她說天氣可以影響心情。精神上的敏感要是失去控制和整理，身心上所受的壓力會變得難以排解。我想最有效的幫助始終都是由個人出發，多出外走一走，小聽憂情小品，盡量令自已想得正面點，沉淪也不要沉得遇溺呢。

我想將一些未能(需要)詳細整理的思維也先寫下來，由這裡開始。
重複作品展出的用意應在於它在那脈絡下可產生的獨有意義。